sovereign

Is God The Sovereign. Then, is sovereign Love? Purest of all forms.

when you're strong enough to feel the power from within.

Feeling the gazing eyes on my body. Penetrating my bones. Like a drill when you're laying on the operationtable. But not fixing the fracture. Rather breaking the bones.

I'm facing the ground. Clasping against the wall. Making you space. Swallowing my beating heart. Tensing my muscles. Being prepared. Being the hunted deer while you're the beast of prey. Knowing there's no escape.

Kissed my eyes, sat on the bed And then said

Keep me in mind you're singing into my soul. I can see your beautiful smile and shining eyes in front of me. I'm talking about the stars. Because they are just like you. My eyes are now like islands in the big pacific ocean. Wishing for the memories to get dried out. Wishing for my eyes to become like the desert. Wishing for you to become a grain of sand. But everytime you're coming with your lustrous eyes my whole soul turns into the big pacific.

when the sun goes down.

in my imagination there's fairys sprinkling glitter everywhere.

I'm seeing this something in front of me. This blue paperbag of something. I'm a moment from pushing it away. Throwing it on the other seat. Squeezing it in among the other insignificant things. I'm an instant from doing an action without thought. We went to get it you're saying. I'm stiffen. Stopping my movement. I'm losing my sight for a moment. Losing my breath. Losing my pulse. This is not something I'm thinking. This is everything.

when the soul asks you why the birds fly by instinct and not you.

I'm looking into your eyes. I'm within your sparkling look. I can't see anything else than you. I'm caught in the moment. In the magic feeling. People are waving with their hands. Screaming out loud. The music is pulsating. But I can only see your eyes. Taste your words and feel your smile.

that moment when you miss one step on the stairs, and you think you're about to die.

My mind is flying in the wind. I'm letting my fingers follow the wallpattern. I'm admiring the golden lines. Turning around seeing your face. Bursting out in laugh and running down the stairs. Feeling the stiff wooden steps under my feet. Stumbling and grabbing for the rounded railing. Hearing your loud footsteps after me. Knowing that you're closing up.

letting the bodycolour rain down back to the ocean.

My bodymolecules are screaming. You're stuck on my retina. You're flashing by over and over again. I'm grabbing the blanket and closing my eyes. Feeling the pain hammering in my belly. Increasing with every loud breath. I'm struggeling to force the air down in my lungs. I'm swallowing. Repeating please be okey. Please be okey. Over and over again. My hands are aching 'cause I've squeezed them so hard. My lungs are sored. Trying to inhale all the toxins. Trying to breath by its own.

Space will always remember our galactic magic. That's why I see you in the stars.

I remember when I was your northern star. I was the one who made your life sparkle like a golden star. You were the one who made my life like a souldance. I danced through pain. I danced through nights. I danced through the sun. I took every step with a certain flow 'cause your galactic energy was always surrounding me like a bubble. You didn't have to speak. I didn't have to prove. We were in sync. Just like the moon and stars.

life will always be beautiful even though we're holding hands in different ways.

It feels like I'm walking in a fairytale. My golden curls are shining in the moonlight. The snowflakes are dancing down from the sky. Lodging on my eyelashes. The trees are comfortably embracing me and I'm walking on their shadows. My shoes are softly pushing the snow down with a whispering sound. I'm smiling. Remembering when we held hands. Shared souls. Did the forbidden. And how it turned different, but still so beautiful.

we can drive back and forth and still see different trees

I'm staring down at the ground. Gazing roughly. Like it's an endless hole. My eyes are red and my smile is indifferent. My body feels like iron melting and my hands are clutching to the wooden bench. I'm leaning forward, ready to collapse. My heart is struggling for every contraction. The blood is pushing forward in my veins. You're whispering in my left ear but I'm just shaking my head apathetic. Leave me alone I'm whispering slowly. Just go.

I'm licking the honey of my Own lips.

You're looking at me like I'm a glazed piece of candy. I'm nervously biting my red lips when your hand is reaching for me in the air. You're pulling my waist next to yours. I'm tensing my muscles, trying to unfold your grip around me. Please, please....please your begging is echoing in my head like a hammering headache. Your fingers are fiddling with my sweater and I'm expanding my nostrils in a huge breath. Staring with my eyes wide open on the ground.

I have to go I'm repeating. I have to go. I want to go. I'm smiling into your begging beautiful eyes 'cause you're a creature of love. But I'm not your glazed candy. I'm not your christmas cracker. And you're not going to lace up the glittering red cover.

the stars are shining through the shadows in the dark.

I'm dodging for the snowcovered branches. Bouncing from side to side over the rivulet. Looking at the red energy surrounding your beating heart. Turning around and sees that you're almost even with me. Laughing and runs like a deer with long legs over the ice. Sliding and giggling like a kid on christmas every time I'm almost falling. Come on, let's make the stars jealous I'm screaming and starts to run against the magical unknown.

did universe give you a sensational anger.

I'm catching your sight. Looking deeply into your soul. Sensing your anger. You're effecting me at once. My whole being sinks to the ground and I'm ready to beg you on my knees. I'm feeling helpless. Squeezing the sand in my hands. Facing the ground with tears dripping down.

You're walking by. Stepping over my soul. It feels like a punch in my belly and I'm losing my breath. My muscular is cramping until I'm losing reality. Whether its day or night. Cold or hot. Living or dying.

Tracking Treasure Down. I know this will be something.

I'm pulling the match quickly on the side of the matchbox. Looking how the splinter burst up in a beautiful flame which I'm leading against the wick. I'm laying down, looking at the fire of the three candles swaying in the morning-air. Feeling how the hair-covered eyes of my marvelous dog are peeking at me. I'm glancing at him and his whole being smiles in a second. I can see how happy this creature is. He can barely stand 'cause he is waving the tail so much.

I'm bursting out in laugh while feeling the love of the universe surrounding me. Cuddling down in this cosy feeling of happiness. I'm on the right track in life now, it's sometimes painful but it's beautiful 'cause I'm allowing to feel what I used to suffocate with other things. I'm tracking magic.

when you don't dare telling the real truth

You're shutting down the tv. Saying my name with that serious voice. My heart is hurtling. The beat is now twice as fast. I'm swallowing. Gazing at the silent screen. Counting the seconds. Please don't. Just don't.

I'm....sorry...for not being there, protecting you....during those times.....but. Your words are pounding inside of me. I'm remaining silent but my body is screaming of pain. Flashbacks are overflowing me like tsunamis. I'm tightening my fists. Trying to breath. Please don't bring it up.

I'm looking down on myself like I'm dead in heaven. Seeing myself laying there on the ground. Wounded. Beaten. Bruised. Crying. And you're walking by. Closing your eyes, 'cause you don't wanna see.